Flashes of Insight

Questions by Ayedo

1. How do you get by spiritually when the world turns cold, icy,
dark, rainy or foggy?

2. Who are your spirit friends?

3. How do you connect with community for spiritual survival?

4. What spirit, deity or animal helps you get by during winter,
helping you find daily pleasure instead of angst as you maneuver
the dimly lit, slippery path in winter’s wake

Thanks so much for posing these provocative questions as I am very much struggling with them myself. I have been quietly acknowledging to myself that I am feeling blue and missing my core of friends all of whom died within a year of each other. I have made other friends but the deep kind don’t come easy.
Being the community Priestess and Shaman doesn’t always help either as all assume that you are fine always.
I rarely if ever get really depressed but I can feel it poking around my edges like a little frost in this cooler time.
So after contemplating these questions, I said to myself, Enough of This and lit my favorite incense in every room and proceeded to go out to feed my beautiful Appaloosa Mare.
I know that I find my deepest peace and sustenance in this Shamanic realm that I co - create under the loving arms of the Grandmother Tree in my White Room.
As always I went to my grid to see if anything needed adjusting and of course the East and West both needed a new stone so that I could bring in what new things I needed and also elevate my spirit.
After ringing my Tibetan Bell for the Spirits who come there [which are many] my eldest familiars came to sit with me. It was so touching as my old and probably dying dog laid down on my feet and my witchiest black cat Jaz sat by my other side hugged up next to me.
In this simple screened space surrounded by the limbs of the great tree and a multitude of crystals and stones I sit being thankful for all that I DO HAVE. and meditate on, trying to find a spark in the dark. I know these words will also become a song for my next CD. I contemplate music and my creativity and promise myself to play today and prepare for my show on Friday. I also think about the Wise Woman’s festival and how and what I might teach differently this year and how best to integrate the new performers and teachers who will come.
I also called one of my newer friends and told her how I was feeling and she reminded me that so many reach out to me and how good it is for me to reach out to others. As I sit here writing my 2 younger boy cats are curled up together in a ball in blissful snuggle. I get so much from my animals, they really are my family so I can’t really say that I live alone yet on occasion the absence of human company feels lonely.
Probably the single most important thing for me to remember is MY TOOLS which are way too numerous to mention and could keep me going all day if I used them all. For the rest of today, I will use some of my tools,Flower Essences,Essential Oils,my own homemade Gem Elixirs,Music and Rest to replenish my cup and drink deeply.
I’m still feeling like I am looking for that spark in the dark but I can feel inspiration almost in reach. I find myself trying now to prime the spiritual/creative pump in the absence of much outer stimulation. I can feel my engines starting to want to rev and bit by bit moving beyond the grayness of the skies and winterness.
The Sun is desperately trying to breakthrough as well so I sit looking rather to the frees full of bright orange tangerines and my boy cats cuddled up next to each other asleep in the chair beside me.. Warm Hugz and Blessings to all as we stoke our fires and prepare for Imbolc when the Fires of the year become ignited once more. BB Flash
Blessings Flash
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